He must become greater

different

2010-09-07T12:24:00.000-07:00

sometimes i see,sometimes i wonder,why cant i be like that,i feel isolated.alone.perhaps,noone understands where i'm coming from.

sometimes i wonder why things dont go as smoothly for me.

but one thing i do know,that i walk by faith,and not by sight.mayb being diff is the exact thing i need right now.

God,i'm still holding on,i'm still waiting.

its been a year

2010-07-31T02:01:00.000-07:00

its been a year since i posted anyth up,well like lazarus i guess this blog's gonna be resurrected then haha.

wow,its been a year,one long year,and a year i have to thank God for.

last year my grades dropped,my relationships with pl were messed up,everyth was out of whack.i guess it was because i didnt prioritize God in everyth i do.yea i mean i KNEW i had to do it,i lifted my hands in worship i did my devotions everyday,and i thought i was doing okay.but thats where the prob is,usually when u THINK ur ok,ur not.i didnt let God into every single area of my life,i didnt know how to be still before him to hear wat he was saying,i turned away from doing wat should've been done,and it took alot before i realized that there were so many areas which i needed to fix and patch up in my life.

But this year i vowed to consecrate every single area in my life to God.and when u partner up with God,u never regret it.

i started working hard this year,and God blessed me with his wisdom,and though i aint the top 10 in chung ling my result shave improved so drastically!u can say that i'm in the top 10 percent haha.(stupid Chinese,always drags me down.XD).but wats more amazing is that i see God using me,even though i dropped class,he still used me to touch the lives of the many friends around me.Being the only chirstian in class isnt easy,but hey,was rebuilding the wall easy for Nehemiah?was it easy fo Moses to lead the israelites to the promised land?was it easy for Jesus to go to the cross?nope.but 2 of my good friends have come to accept Christ,and i am so joyful because of that.and i am expecting more, because all things are possible for those who believe.

i have also understood the importance of being a good leader,of ministering to the ppl that are younger in faith.Being a youth leader,i have to reach out to the new guys,and to minister to those that need it,its hard sometimes,and praying for so many ppl each night requires hard work.XD.but i tell u its worth it when u see them grow.

i have also fimrly founded my identity in God as a beloved Son.we shouldnt take this for granted ppl!we are a holy nation,a royal priesthood,and sons of God.we are uniques,special and loved by the awesome God of this universe.i dont need to look elsewhere,no need to look for ppl's approval or recognition, because as it says in john 10:10 i have come thatthey may have life,and have it to the full.and i am pursuing and living this life.

so i'm still running the race God has set before me,still allowing God to lead me to deeper waters for a bigger catch just as he did with peter,but i tell u,i am loving every single minute of it.

as Nehemiah prayed so i pray.Now strengthen my hands.I fix my eyes on the perfector and the author of my faith,Jesus Christ,

two sides

2010-02-20T02:59:00.000-08:00

Two sides rage war within me,two sides pulling me in two directions,two sides which are polar opposites that clash everyday,two sides which live inside of me,two sides..

and every time i have to choose only one

The flesh and spirit,each desiring wat is contradictory to the other.The flesh hungering and fulfilling only wat it craves for and desires.Always wanting to go against the laws that have been set,always wanting to cross the boundaries that have been placed.the raw nature of sin that had manifested itself in humans for eons,driving the very beings God made in his own image,to defy and rebel against him,and it is no different in me.It is a side i fear,a side i dread,the side of me which is haunting and dementing,a side shrouded with darkness and cloaked with the capacity for great evil.

but the spirit is the side which gives me life,true life,and allows me to have life and have it in abundance.a side which has enabled me to see,opening my once blinded spiritual eyes and by grace,spreading on me a blanket of grace and righteousness.The spirit,given to me when i accepted and believed in the salvation brought open by the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ of Nazareth.the spirit a vital and essential gift frm God,and i thank Him for it everyday

So father i pray that i obey the spirit more,ur spirit,and that i will come to understand even further that sin..has never had a hold on me,that along with all my brothers and sisters in Christ,we are free frm the bondage and shackles of sin which cannot imprison us any longer.

we are..free.

I

2010-02-05T03:29:00.000-08:00

as u noe what i write here is usually directed at God so yea.

i always liked being free.no attachments no nth.no nid to converse so frequently,jst going arnd minding ur own business.doing ur own thing,jst u and God.so light and easy,no baggage no openings to be hurt,flying solo.

its diff.when things change,i dunno.not that i dont like it but...its diff.nw it snt jst me anymre.
i enjoy that feeling of feathery lightness.

yes selfish it might seem,but hey i gotta express myself heh.

God pls teach me wat to do.

Outlet

2009-12-20T08:49:00.000-08:00

what to say,its been pretty hectic these few days,running here and there,feeling very tired but i'm glad that thi shol was well spent. i need the time to rest,physically and spiritually.

God's been telling me alot.some prayers were answered in ways i didn expect them to ,and some parts of myself,stuff that was buried and lost a long time ago started uncovering and though i dont like it one bit,i thank God that He's shown me wat i have to change.

i realize that i'm possessive,at times easily frustrated and angered ,impatient,demanding,prideful,not knowing how to be still before God,and perhaps having places and spots in my soul which have not yet been filled,gaps which i never even knew existed nor knowing the reason of its existence.thankfully its all been uncovered now.

typing it out an penning ti down helps,it helps me to keep track of wat i know and wat i've learned so far.

i know i;m still struggling,i know i've got a LONG way to go,in my qiest to live thi slife for God,i fail so often,i fail so many times,and i'm sorry God.i'm sorry.

But thank You for that corss,the corss which puts to death the sinner in me,thank You for the blood of Christ which will always wash me clean of my sins,thank You for being with me,.for abiding in me.In chaos,confusion, in the midst of trials and tribulations,in the mids of failure

you're here.

and you'll always be here.

Thank You God.

Thank You.

If

2009-12-16T00:29:00.000-08:00

If i could accumulate the amount of anger i felt,i think it would be enough to really allow me to change into a were wolf,to give me the ability to create a tornado,to be able to pump me up enough to rip the very earth apart

then Thank God i do not have the ability to allow my anger to manifest itself in such ways,or alot of ppl are going to die,

but sometimes i wish i could.

God

2009-12-12T07:46:00.000-08:00

God thank You for showing me so much.

but i still struggle i still need help

i believe help me in my unbelief

i am willing help me in my unwillingness

i love yOu OGod

i do,so help me

please i wanna live for u,so God mould me and shape me to become like Jesus.amen.

why

2009-12-02T07:19:00.000-08:00

God wat is...

gah this is so confusing.how do i express myself

wat is the difference

why cant things be simplified

why cant...

its so...

darn..

why..

do i..

where is..

argh

God help me.

A living paradox

2009-10-24T05:56:00.000-07:00

in every human the capacity for evil,and yet possessing the same capability to carry out good deeds.

in every human,the ability to rage,ravage and destroy.Yet there are many who are called peacemakers,loving,children of God.

in every human,therein lies a monstrosity,the power to wreak havoc and unleash hell on earth.Yet in every human,there is an angel,a saint,spreading and smothering those they meet with brotherly love.

Every human,a living paradox,the embodiment of polar opposites,a walking oxymoron.

If only it were possible to rid myself of the carnal nature that rises up within me so often.If only the component of sin was eradicated from this earthly body of mine!How i wish to be sinless,pure and blameless before God.

At times my soul feels as if it were about to be torn in two.On one hand,the sin that i so hate,tempts me to leap into her open arms,a swirling black vortex of doom only awaiting to destroy me.And sometimes i heed the voice of the animalistic nature i have yet to destroy!But on the other,i hear the voice of God,the calling to be pure and empty myself of my spirit and be filled with His.And to my joy and most certainly to His,i am learning to tap into that nature more and more.

But so many times i loose that connection.so many times i fail.

Oh who can save me from the filth that so encompasses me?Who could possibly save this sinner,the worst of sinners?

But Thanks be to God!That He has already sent Christ to Die for me,and more importantly that Christ is ressurected,that he is already seated at the right hand of God.

I have so much to learn,still so young in faith,still so weak,still so powerless,still finding my way,still having so much room to grow.

But thanks be to God.

Thanks be to God.

Pondering

2009-09-27T06:36:00.000-07:00

pondering upon what are we really doing in our lives.

in ours schools in our lifes,do we really contribute everything to God.

how many times have we let our old selves with its lusts,desires,anger and all the fallen qualities of man take contorl of us?

we need to stay CONNECTED to God.it something so important that really hit me now.

it snot just for that one hour of reading the bible and worshiping..no.its praying and talking and meditating on God throught the whole day.to continually stay tuned to him even in doing our mundane routines

schoolwork,chores,our homes,our churches his is where God has placed for a reason.

lets live out His glory.

Heart of worship

2009-09-26T10:38:00.000-07:00

we always sing that we Love God,we close our eyes,feel His presence go home rejoicing,and then

we forget everything.

Do we really know what He did on the corss for us?have we really meditated on his stautues day and night?have we REALLY been trying to follow Him and love Him?Do we obey God only partially?

do we roclaim God with our lives?

have we really surrendered everything?

do we really noe how hard it is to praise God when all thigns are stripped away?do we really noe what faith hope and love really is?

the heart of worship is COMPLETE OBEDIENCE.

how often have we missed that mark?have we really laid down our lives for Him?

worship is more than songs,music and saying pious prayers.worship is living outHis word.

ot sso easy to [raise God when we'r healthy,surrounded by friends and family,with everythign we want and need

in fact in times like these,we usually forget Who's giving us all the blessgins in life,who's really worthy of our praise,and instead focusing on the world,on our friends,on relationships,on everythign besides god.

God please.let me proclaim with every inch of my soul

Jesus
You
Are
Lord
forever.

You

2009-09-19T01:56:00.001-07:00

you look too good for your own good.

seeing u smile is an experience i'll never ever forget.

my heart still skips a beat everytime i see u.

I can only imagine

2009-08-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

i can only imagine

what my eyes will see

when Your face

is b4 me...

God.

i care so much.

as a phoenix

2009-08-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

As we socialize, communicate, lead our own private and public lives..

we are all connected

interwoven intertwined in the delicate fabric of time and space...destined to meet each other to impact, effect,change,shape each other in ways we cannot yet comprehend.

and in the midst of all this,in the process of growing into whom our Creator shapes us to be,we realize that there is more to existence than just ourselves..

it sis far bigger than we can ever realize..

we overlook the fact that beneath the shallow external appearances,,deep down,burried ar ethe needs of maimed souls who are not yet meet,not yet recognized..

or at times we choose to ignore it.

and as we continue walking our own different paths..wrestling with our souls..we inevitably yield in to the carnal nature and the desires that wage war within us which have been inherited since the fall in eden..

nevertheless..

as a phoenix rises from the ashes

so will i.

let me live to serve O God.

Thnx guys

2009-07-26T05:58:00.001-07:00

for all of u that went to sports.

for all of u that stayed back

for all of u that helped my mum and i search for my sis

for all of u who prayed.

thnx

thnx for caring.

=)

the handsome rat

2009-07-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

heh the perevious post was one inspired by the novelist dean koontz.give his books a go..hey GOOD.

it was just giving anger a literary image thats all.=)

anyways this was a convo of me and mel while waitinf for her to pack sushi home.

mel:eh look at the rat.
sean"what?why?
mel:looks like u..hahahah
sean:WHOA...handsome rat...
sean and mel:hahahahaa
mel:i CANT belive u just said that O.o
sean:learned it frm ya.
mel:SLAP.

hahahaha

Hate.

2009-07-17T08:20:00.000-07:00

he glances around to make sure noone was in sight.

he curls into a fetal position vibrating uncontrollably ..letting the hurt, the pain ,the longing wash over him

oh how he loved

oh how he hurt

how he envied

how he..

raged.

and as he felt these emotions take control.he felt that terribly unbearable pain,indefatigably hurting him,causing him to cry out.and opening his eyes he revealed the first of the inhuman transformations he would undergo,his pupils were no longer black,but red,with unique swirls,these eyes were ones which could detect and anticipate any movement at all.

RAAAAGGGHHH

as the rage,the hurt..the pain,the hatred coursed through his veins,he pulled back his mouth to reveal rows of lethal teeth,capable of slicing and crushing anything locked between his jaws.

his spine curved and twisted,and he unleashed a piercing cry as wings and sharp protrusions burst from his skin.

a tail complete with a scorpion like stinger on its end grew out of him..

how he sacrificed..how he waited....

how he cared.

his hands grew and sharp claws took place of nails,bony,coal black structures took the place of human hands,and feet,human skin was shredded as a grotesque animalistic body took place.

and as he pushed his teeth back into a snarl,his jaws elongated,bones in his face reconfiguring themselves to resemble those of a wolf or a crocodile.

and then he roared.

he channeled all that hate into that single blood curdling roar.

but that roar wasnt enough.

he was out for blood.

and so he went through the forest using terrible strength to fling boulders and enormous tress out of its was,picking up any living thing he found and shredded it to pieces,cracking limb after limb,snapping spines,tearing animals in half,crushing skulls,gouging out eyes and internal organs,flinging pieces of flesh and tissue resulting in gore that covered the entire underbrush.

POWER.

YES IMMENSE POWER.

KILL

DESTROY

yes HATE,OBLIVIATE anything that stands in your way especially your fellow "friends" that back stab u,insult u,get mad at u for no reason,acting like the world revolves around those selfish morons,those FOOLS.

find them

and feast on thier flesh..

and as the voice grew louder and louder in his head,his anger grew and grew,channeling hurt and pain into white hot FURY.

he was going to finish all those useless people who put themselves on holy pedestales.

yes tonight he was going to show them the consequences of their actions.

there..one of them

that girl whom wrongly acussed him and commanded him in that painfuly annoying tone to not let someone else wait.

ah some one behind her..

infact a whole gang of them..

BACKSTABBERS.

HYPOCRITES..

as that rage doiled and festered..

he acted.

using one swipe he knocked all of them in all directions..slamming them into trees and rocks.

how he would savor this.

he kicked and punched one after the other,enjoying their mortified screams and pleas to stop as well as the terrified expressions seeing something so horrendous,something so powerful.

as they crouched on the ground coughing out blood and groaning in a state of semi-consciousness.he decided that now was the time that he would snap their body parts and let each other see what the other looked like after being remodeled like play dough.

as the act of judgement was about to be cariied out,a blinding flash caused him to stummble,afraind he retreaded into the woods..and adruptly he found himself in his human form...standing in front of a supernatural being..

again powere radiated,power flowed..from whoeevr this guy was.

but this power was infinetly greater,and he realised this wasnt the power of hate.

it was love.

at that moment he realised he wasnt so great after all.being a human like the rest of them,he was as much of a hypocrite

no..he was worse.

he was convicted and as the being clothed in white,with a light shinning FROM him approached,the man broke down.

and then he knew who this was.

someone he had put aside for so long,someone he identified as insignificant.

Father?

son i forgive You..

forgive them as well.be set free from these chains.

and then a peace he had never felt b4,the Peace of love.

yes Father,i will.

I just want u to know

2009-07-11T03:18:00.000-07:00

I just want you to know.

i've been fighting to let u go.

but i cant

And yet

2009-07-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

And yet

even in the midst of a fallen corrupted world

how much God blesses us.

friends,family,good health SPORTS =D.church

but the greatest miricale is Christ in me.

although fear,uncertainty,doubt indefatigably disturbs,

i have my God.

and i have those memories.

thats enough to make me smile.=)

Life

2009-07-07T00:46:00.000-07:00

Life is funny

but it's also complicated

fragile.

full of unexpected turns and surpirises

changing us shaping us

sometimes life was better when it was simple.

sometimes i envy kids

they laugh at anything,find joy so easily,as long as their basic needs r met,they smile with contentment.

yea.

so i wholly surrender.

teach me Your ways God.

as moses asked...

show me Your glory.

I just

2009-07-04T09:27:00.001-07:00

I just want you to be happy

i just want to see that smile again

God guide me.

I care

2009-06-30T08:16:00.000-07:00

I care
i really do

is this meant to be?

are you the right one?

how can i noe?

so near and yet so far literally

darn it

i dont have the guts to ask.

darn.

So here i am

2009-06-27T10:58:00.000-07:00

here i am at 2 am unable to sleep.

and tml i have church.

darn.

my body is worn out,but my brain begs to differ.

perhaps to much caffine frm the tea ice?O.o

heh and here's the first pi con my blog =)

yes

2009-06-24T06:25:00.000-07:00

yes

this is the month of evangelism.

i decided to take it to a whole new level.

not just one friend,not 3,not 3

the entire class of 40 ppl.

yes.

i used my oral assesment and spoke about God.

it was scary allrite.

but i'm glad i did it.

thank You God.

=)

what are u thinking?why are things so confusing?are you hiding something?should i be feeling this way?

In the end its all up to my Father.

Restless

2009-06-21T04:32:00.000-07:00

restless ebcause there isnt any sports

i'm copped up at home,my mum and dad arent even letting me jog or swim because of the haze.

ARRRGGGHHH

al this pent up energy isnt good

and it doesnt help that i slept for 2 hours =/

what to do?

haizzzzz

restless because i dunno what it is.

i miss those times.

thoughts

2009-06-12T08:53:00.000-07:00

feelings, emotions never certain or lasting
never rooted ,firm,like it would in casting
annoying,disturbing,always in my head
scattered,racing,like fleas in my bed

so unsure and uncertain i hate it u see
i dont want to buzz and move like a bee
going frm one flower to the next
never resting nor even having time for a text

ahh how the heart feels,it so confusing at times
messed up exactly like a pile of dimes
dropped and rolling all over the place
perhaps it would be better to hit urself with a mace

how i wish to be rigid and that i wont budge
how i wish to be slow and precise to judge
why oh why do i feel this way
i wish i dont i would like to say

irittable, its driving me nuts
disgusting like a pile of butts
ugh how i wish to be free of this, now
it makes me feel just like a cow
that has been milked one time too many
deranged and dizzy like my great aunt fanny

2 roads to take which one should i choose?
or maybe,just like a goose
i would run and fly to seek better ground
because there r alot of nicer fields around.

if u noe what i;m trying to say

i'll give u one ringgit.

=)

I'm winning

2009-06-12T00:51:00.000-07:00

I cant believe it

with God i'm winning.

i cant believe it.

YEA MAN!

Luke 1:37 nothing is impossible with God.

so true

=)

2009-06-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

i like appricots

very chewy

very nice

lol.

that previous post was uncalled for.

haha.

but hey eevry1 snaps.

i guess i stil gotta continue praying.

continue beliving.

God is with me..

and that God will work thru me

I listen

2009-06-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

i listen

i really did.

why do u think i dont?

=(

Strength

2009-06-03T08:43:00.000-07:00

strength

I need Your strength.

to keep the promises i made.

But i stil miss the times when we smiled,laughed and talked togheter.

the sky's so beautiful.

My love story

2009-06-01T23:07:00.001-07:00

B4 i knew God my love life was a mess.

Even after i knew God i messed up.

So now.

God.

i give u the pen to my love story.

I'll let You write MY love story for me.

I will go only when u say go.

because u love and know me more than i do myself.

thnx for da book mel!=).(eh why am i including mel in so many posts 0.0 XD)

Melissa who?

2009-06-01T09:47:00.001-07:00

there was once my dad asked

dad:who fetched u home?

me:melissa

dad:melissa who?

me:melissa hoo

dad:melissa WHO?

me:melissa HOO!

haha its so much fun messing around with parents XD

So many things

2009-05-31T05:09:00.000-07:00

So many things that happened

some i thank God for.

restoring relations with good friends.

some i have to pray hard about.

its so hard to fight my old self.

so hard to fight temptation that coems in so many forms.

God i will wait.

I will hold on.

I am counting on You =)))

)weird dream

2009-05-28T01:25:00.000-07:00

THNX MEL!!!the song is AWESOME!!!

when i'm on worship team for ya u'd BETTER sing this song XD

i am counting on i am counting on God!=)

anyways i had this weird dream,i was at gurney dating this girl..

and then..

(then girl was dayummm prettayy =p)

then...

DANIEL LOH walked past XD

then he was shaking his head

lolll

Its hard

2009-05-24T07:30:00.000-07:00

Its hard

to apply the Word.

its hard knowing that u can fail God so many times..

everything is a mess.

Why am i so sinful.

DAMN IT!!!!

i cant continue on like this

For brian

2009-05-22T09:21:00.001-07:00

looks like some1else is leaving 412..brian this goes out to you =)

B is for brave, calm completely serene
for now a big brother whose age is nineteen
will be leaving for KL,it is a terrible loss
ur one of the few,whom i' d be glad to cal boss

R is for respectable,a person whos worth
looking up to,i'm sure that ever since birth
God had a plan,and he would use u to channel
all the blessings,make u strong and tough,like a cammel

I is for i and the rest of us all
will miss u dearly,ur smile and ur gall
the comfort u bring even without saying a word
it is a gift frm God,use it,soar high like a bird

A is admirable,a role model indeed
handsome,responsible in word or in deed
faithful,loyal,making such a good friend
some1 whom would stick with u to the end

N is for nominated best brother and leader of the year
Ur smile,friendliness,all of us will definetly hold dear
so many things unsaid,so many things to say
but now all i can do,is pray that u follow the Way

Brian even though u deny it,it is a loss alot of ppl feel,especially ppl whom u touched by making them feel welcome,ppl like me.You have such potential brian,may God bless u..truly.

until next time brian kor kor =)

I need

2009-05-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

I need

I thirst..

for redemption.

I need to trust You again..

Noone understands me better than You do..

and yet everything is falling apart..

I need to trust You again..

Help me

Tearing it down

2009-05-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

Gah..why's the relations i hav with ppl falling apart?

why isn there enough time to study?

why do i let my old self surface?

Give me clean hands.

Take it all frm me.

You have the power to.

God.

Thirsty

2009-05-07T08:56:00.000-07:00

Thirsty Lord

Wont u rain down on me.

He must become greater,I must become less.
John 3:30

Thats my verse

You are stronger

2009-05-06T05:47:00.000-07:00

You are stronger

You are infinetly stronger than anything in existence.

Empower me.

Give me strength.

Take me to where You are.

This my prayer OGod.

Fill me with Your spirit.

Doing all i can

2009-05-03T02:51:00.000-07:00

Damn,my exams are coming up.

yea i;ve studied,but its like,i dont feel i've done enough.

i put in alot of hours at school.the teachers dont teach,lol.so i study.

but its time to rev it up,i'm gonna have to put in alot more effort if i wanna do well.

i cna only pray and strvie hard for this.

i wanna score,i wanna be good at my studies.

Godwilling,i will.

this time the results wil be diff..

i hope.

darn.

hw

2009-04-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

i hate hw..what a bother..

i mean why do teachers give it to me when they KNOW i wont do it???

and we have marks based on how neat our hw is..

i mean c'mon they KNOW that my handwriting isn neat AND that i'll do it at the last min..

ppffftttt..malaysian education system.XD

wave challenge is coming up!!

gonna pawn at skitter ball heheheheheheh..

the firsbee team..hmm...its a lil unstable..

not as strong as it used to be..lol.

good luck to us all..

time to fly...

by the end of this year...

i,m gonna dunk.XD

Damn it

2009-03-28T07:40:00.001-07:00

damn it...i hate this kind of tendency.

gahhh its so hard sometimes.

i wont give up

I Fail

2009-03-26T01:24:00.000-07:00

I fail You time and time again..
perhaps in almost every area.

scratch that.

i DO fail u in almost every area.

But i wont stop,no i wont

my fialure will motivate me even more.

God strengthen me,let me hang on to Your words.

All i want is You.

I;m breaking free..and running after You.

Breaking free

2009-03-22T06:01:00.000-07:00

No not again not this time,its not gonna happen again.

what i promised God i will keep,i will be His son.

I wont fail u again.

I trust in You,Nothing is impossible for u,I keep the faith and i'll fight.

I'm breaking free.

I'm running after You.

YEA!!!!

Its time

2009-03-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

i worry about my studies..life..my safety..the future.

am i getting it right with God?why dop i keep on failing Him...why cant i be more obedientto some1 whop gave His life for me?

by golly nows the time.i'm tired of falling..i'm gonna stand and fight and run after God with every single ounce of energy in me

its time to stand for all i believe in

its gonna be tough..but i'm gonna do it.

this is the way it was meant to be.

lets go.

the 100th post

2009-03-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

AHA I CAN SIGN IN AGAIN!lol...i couldnt sign in for 2 months,feels good to be back.

there's still one more day till my exams finish..and then its the leadership retreat..

i'm ready if u say do it i;m gonna do it God..its time..one last sign..and i'll do it

Because i love You more than anything or anyone else.

Its hard being a christian..its hard cause the lifestyle i was used to for my past 14 years of life have to be changed...realizing that i;m surrounded by sin and still sin everyday isnt an easy fact to live with,dissapointing some1 i love everyday is hard on me,failing everyday is hard.

But i'll fight my sinful side with every ounce of energy i have.God i wanna follow u with all my might.

Oh man i wanna dunk..my training is going well,but i still got some way to go..dont worry i'll be able to in at least a year XD.i'm gonna be superman.hehehe..

superman is in the builiding.oh and its my 100th post today..yipeee...

Face the music

2009-01-04T04:51:00.000-08:00

it stime again..time to face the world..this past hol God has been shaping m,e and moulding me..and given me better equipment for the battles ahead.

Now..

its time to face the music

I'm steeping out into the world again..filled wiht temptations..distractions...

sin.

but i put on my armor....draw my spiritual word..i'm geeting ready for the fights ahead of me.

My one on one battles wiht sin..comes again.

but i cna assured..u'r there with me Father.Your love...is everything.Yopu rpromises to forgive and protect..all u ahv fulfilled.

I stand strong in my God.

Sound thr horn.

I charge ahead ..for Jesus.

Yong xiang...

2008-12-21T08:22:00.000-08:00

My brother..it is time for u to leave us...we'll miss u but i feel happy that God has let u grow up to be strong in faith and compassionate for ppl.I believe as with so many others..God will use u..in a mighty way.

I'll miss u my dear friend..but i feel happy for u too.I wish u all the best...dont come back with grand kids.XD

we have been thru a lot..its been such an awesome privallege to know u and to be ur bro..

xiang xiang boy...ur a man..a man of God..

be the joseph i noe u are...

God bless u brother

=)

What Has God given me?

2008-12-16T09:37:00.000-08:00

What has He done?what christmas gifts will he give me?
Friends,Family,Good body,Proection,Material blessings,and most importantly...

LOVE.

Oh how i cannot fanthom or grasp this love that runs so deep within me.

OH!This is the true love my friends,that can fill u if there is a void in ur heart.

This love knows no boundaries,it is unconditional,and when we start to grasp that..the world doesn matter.He just loves us the way He created us...He just loves us for us!as simple as that...Loved us so much that in all religions,in any beliefs,My God is the only God who loved us so much till He was willing to send down His flesh and blood to die...just for us.

Thats my Christmas gift my friends...and whats more..He loved me so much that he has poured out belssings and protection on me...

Even when noone accepts or loves u....God does.

Where in all the world..can u find a love like that.

It shouldnt be what can God give me for christmas..it should be what can I give to God.

What am i going to give?

God,Father...i give u my life,my soul.my spirit,my heart,my entirie being..

let it be all for You.

Is it possible for me to jump over them?

2008-12-06T22:57:00.000-08:00

its been a while since i onlined,my cousins was here,couldnt use thecom lol.and then tml i'll be going to a camp...wont be updating til after itXD.

I'm a busy man.

ah i wanna ask u guys...do u guys think it'll be possible for me to jump over...
jamie?
halley?
dianne?
daniel loh?

hmmm...i dont dare to try.lol.

ahhh i know i can jump high....

lemme wallow in self pribe for a lil while..heheheheheh

anyways does anyone have meet the spartans?i wanna watch it.

Outing

2008-11-29T05:02:00.000-08:00

Well at times it was pointless but the most important thing is...we had fun!XD

we played frisbee,monkey,ping pong,sand,with dead fishes,bball,cards,foosball,and other stuff(i think).The masterlife group bonded really well,i dunno bout u guys but it was a great time of fellowship,we got to talk to ppl we never really talked to.Like owayne....especially owayne...who entertained with crazy stories of his school life.

Waking up with tooth paste on my face..it wasnt exactly a fun experience.I dont mind it now,but pls dont do that again.yes matt i'm talking to you.

AND i never knew carmen had such a powerful slap.I was sitting there then WAP!carmen hit me owwww..then wap!ben hit me..OWwwww..then WAP!OWWWWW....cramen again.

Then i joked bout sumthin wap!hannah hit me,wap!cramen hit me.wap!ben hit me,then the finisher was by carmen.

and i woke up to?u guessed another crazy wack by carmen yong.I was on the verge of swearing ...lol.

All in all a fun and wild experience

I am renewed

2008-11-26T04:26:00.000-08:00

Refreshed redeemed a new creation,praise be to My God who has let me come back to Him again.Its been a while,But Thank You Father for letting me come back to u=)

and its been raining a lot lately,cant go out so when i wanna jog i gotta go to the gym,its getting kinda boring,staring at the ceiling,My motivation was to imagine the yellow plastic disc flying in front of me and running after it.It does work in a way,but i wanna chase after a REAL one,not an imaginary one.

So i was in gurney and i was kinda tired so a bit blur blur then a thought(perhaps God given)just cut across my mind and said ur gonna meet mat.So i was like..OK.and then i was walking around and lo and behold walking into the store with lanky footsteps was none aother than tall thin matthew lim with his cap on.WHOA...XDDD.I fooled around with him for a while before leaving the store.

and thats it folks hope i'll have sumthin mroe intresting next time =)

Ahhhh....

2008-11-23T04:43:00.000-08:00

ahhhh that feels better,I finally had my weekly dose of frisbee.

today T.O.P ppl joined us and max played even though he was handiccaped =0.This is called gengXD.Anyways it was pity yx didnt couldnt come,haizzz but the show had to go on.

and a lot of upland ppl joined us,so we split into 3 teams for the first time.

of course,my team owned everyone..i mean c'mon it was expectedXD.jamie didnt seem to like me today,lol.brian elbowed my hip as i jumped with him,and i also crash landed into hannah.jumping is so fun,i wanna jump jump jump!

hayley and me were the 2 ge ongs today i think ppl cant see hayley...thats why shes always openXD.

and to top the fantastic sports sesion off,i had my very own frisbee knock in the lips!but i dont mind thank God nothing serious occured.

FRISBEE ROCKS!!!!!RAH!!!CANT WAIT TILL NEXT SUN!!!

F-R-I-S-B-E-E

2008-11-19T09:12:00.000-08:00

lets talk bout the princes of the plastic disc..i'm talking bout ultimate frisbee.

I WANNA PLAY.

i wanna jump.i wanna catch.i wanna throw,,i wanna score,i wanna block.

i wanna hang in the air.

let me repeat that I WANNA HANG IN THE AIR.

i wanna outjump everyone.

yea lets say that again.I WANNA OUTJUMP EVERYONE.

i wanna FLY.

i wanna laugh,i wanna shout,i wanna dive.

c'mon,c'mon'C'MON!

i wanna be one of the princes of the plastic disc.

yea..I WANNA BE ONE OF THE PRINCES OF THE PLASTIC DISC!

I WANNA PLAY!!!!

GET ME A DISC!LETS GO!!!!!!

terror,fear....

2008-11-19T05:02:00.001-08:00

last night...

my gosh it was terrible....

it was horrifying,scary,fear gripped me....

darkness enclosed me...

and yet God has led me towards His light.

My God my God forgive me for my stupidity...

dont turn ur back on me again.

2008-11-18T06:56:00.000-08:00

Today max,yx ,ben and i went to gurney to catch a movie.When we reached there we didnt noe wat movie to watch so we just took madagascar 2.

and i can tell that show is DANGGGGG funny.U GOTTA WATCH IT!=)

so then we spent some time hanging out or should i say fellowhiping.max being max went to get a hot dog and ben did the same.i on the other hand got green tea ice cream and tea ice.We talked while walking and rounded nearly the whole of gurney plaza until we sat down at a restruant beside GSC and talked sommore till max and ben went to watch 007.

So it was me and yx,it was about 5.10 we walked around the whole of gurney plaza in rounds and rounds and rounds while talking for over an hour.

It wasnt the place that made it nice It was the ppl God had sent to be with me.

Looking back this couldnt be possible without my Father.

And i thank Him for all of u =)

Friendship

2008-11-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

When i first came into GBC i saw everyone mingling and having so much fun with each other.Why was it different why was it special?i envied it.i wanted those kind of close friends.

Know why?its because they put God first,and so having that they had Godly relationships with one another.

I am so thankful to God i am having those kind of friendships now,thank you Father for gicing me such good friendsAnd thank you,all of you especially yx,max,ben for being able to forgive and forget to put aside the mistakes i made and to continue growin in God and fellowshiping with each other.

so nice=)

Redemption and forgiveness

2008-11-16T07:29:00.002-08:00

Rage was what i held now rage is what i let go.it was a huge misunderstanding

I wa spraying and praying and then now i'm not so sure how myself,i was..well actually thinking back i also dunno what happenedXD.

but the most important thing is i saw a pic of me and u guys laughing and smiling and holding each others shoulders.

This brotherhood meant so much to me.All i can say is God,gave me peace,and now he has told me to forgive and seek forgiveness.and i praise my Father for that.

and now i am redeemed i am forgiven.

brothers to the end....=)

OH GOD IS GOOD!!!!

Whos taller now mat

2008-11-16T04:19:00.001-08:00

so me and mat jumped...

Then i managed to tap it down.

it hit me.

at that moment i was taller than he was.

AHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!WOOHOOHOO!!!!WHOS TALLER NOW MAT????HAH!!!lol.

anyways nice catches yong xiang, jia yit can throw some freaky hammers man...,and i made a few good passes to a few ppl in the boxXD.

but most importantly....

I WAS TALLER THAN MAT!!!AHAHAH(sorry ah matXD)

P.S u've got competition matthew.....

Love..love...love...

2008-11-13T20:14:00.001-08:00

Ahhh love...wat a complicated sweet emotion every single being created will experience.In short,it is a beautiful thing...rite?

Not in some movies.UGH....its soooooo disgustingly icky and mushy and sappy like in hsm 3.Thers this part where they'r halfway through the bball game and then troy starts singining to his gal.The stadium turns dark..the spotlights on her.

WAT THE HECK????!!!OH MAN I FELT LIKE PUKING!CUT THE CRAP MAN THIS IS CRAZY!i can imagine lilies and ponnies and lil pupies dressed in pink tutus dancing all around them.

BLAUGH!!!!!!!GET REAL!!!!!!ewwww its dripping with sweetness that would make bitter medication so sweet till it rots and ferments.

its nice seeing my friends in love,its fun teasing themXD,i dont mind being in love.

But can the movie directors not exagerate it.......

2008-11-12T19:39:00.000-08:00

Dont try jogging,especially before breakfast..ugh...u'll get gastric real easy.I tried,trust me.And all the ppl having breakfast in the coffee shop were giving me looks that had"whats that crazy boy doing?"written all over their faces.

Tml will be last day of school before the hols,this year was the best year of my life,I've formed lots of new friendships,really close friendships over this year.Xiang,Max,Gavin,Ben,Jeremy....the list goes on and on.I've also learned to feel at home in GBC,which gives me alot of joy.And most of all i've come to know the Lord more and more,I pray that my walk with Him will go ever deeper and closer.

In short this tear had been a real blessing from God.And it is indeed my joy getting to know all of you.=)family and friends are the 2nd best gifts frm God.

P.S not to mention my"best friend"Matthew lim.Need help mat?=p

to yong xiang

2008-11-10T09:18:00.000-08:00

to yong xiang...cheers.

although we only knew each other for just over a year,we have become very close friends,to the extent of brotherhood.Yong xiang,i'm gonna miss u a lot ,it wont ever be the same without you,of curse u will come back right?=)

the times when we crapped,prank called,crapped,played sports,crapped,sneaked out at night,and yes crapped,dont ever forget them,cause i wont.

Make sure u keep in contact.always be close and keep on growing in God,i will see u here there or in the air.=)

I am sad to say that u'll be leaving us,but this is a new beggining for you too.

You've been one of my closest friends yx,i will remember this brotherhood.

2008-11-09T05:04:00.000-08:00

Yong xiang,ur not ge ong anymore,hannah isXD.and thnx carmen for the key chain,really nice!=)

Oh yeaaaa it was so fun doing lansi stuff while playing captian ball,i copied the sacred heart bballer,HAHA soooooooooo shiok

The questions that i kept on asking,it was such a burden.....but i decided to sureender it all,and the peace that God gave me....it was too beautiful for words.

and theres this song i like frm planetshakers it really is an awesome sing.

Let Your light shine in me so all the world can see the power of Your majesty
JESUS I WILL LIFT UR NAME UP!!!!!!!
Let your spirit fall on me so all the world can know that your my God.
JESUS I WILL LIFT UR NAME UP!!!!!

2008-11-07T07:36:00.000-08:00

I thank God for his grace,love and all his blessings.

Thank You for all the wishes!=)and thnx guys for the cake,which is all over my faceXD.But thnx for all ur kind bday wishes,no need to get me anything,knowing u guys is enough.U guys make me smile=)

And yet this is just a lil taste of what is to come in heaven.This life might seem good,but heaven is the place where we long to be.

Allrighty,just thnx guys,you mean alot to me!=)seriously,its so nice of u guys=))))))

2008-11-05T22:55:00.000-08:00

No pics,because the usb cable is spoilt,not because i do not know how=)

Tml is the frisbee tourney!lets pray for a good weather and for the chung ling kia to win!(which is almost certainXD)

And tml we celebrate the birth of one among many of Gods creations...SEAN!!thats rite,ME!MY BDAY!XD.What i want?i dont really want anything frm this world,what i want is a deeper walk with my Lord,and u guys have been a very good present to me already=)No need for gifts,although my parents will be taking for suckling piglet....mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

First off,thank you God for letting me know you,for creating me,blessing my life and letting me walk with you, i am celebrating my first birthday as a real(and still striving to reach God's standard) christian born again in the spirit. God,thank you for putting up with me,and for loving me.And of course thank you to my mum and dad,for bringing me up to be the man(boy)i am today,plus guiding me when i needed it,and for loving me too.

But seriously friends ,parents,this life is already such an awesome present frm God and i thank u guys for putting up with my weaknesses and being my friends=).You guys are the best!All i want,to be like my God,to be like my Father.

2008-11-04T07:59:00.000-08:00

pics in the next post PROMISE=)

God...

let me have the child-like faith...

Give me rest give me peace...

Your ways..incomprehensible...

Let me run to You always...

Hold my hand...lead me..my God..y Saviour...my One and Only..

this my cry OFather..let me love You more than these,let me..always..seek Your face..

let me join You in eternity

2008-11-03T23:56:00.000-08:00

Sometimes u just have to surrender ,trust God that all he does is for your good,your Life is in His hands what else can you do?

God's ways are incomprehensible,where was I when he made the earth?where was I when he gave life to every being?Does the hawk fly by my wisdom?Does the eagle soar at my command?Who am I to question Him.Take my life,Let me trust and seek ur face,look towards what is eternal,and let me love You with everything I've got.

Frisbee tourney and my bday this fri!yea...suckling pig for dinner and becoming frisbee champion as a present(lansiXD)But i have full confidence in my team mates WE'R GONNA WIN THIS YEA??(cause i think we'r the only school practising PLUS we have 5 GBC memebers who are playing frisbee every sunday)

Nothing much beens going on,we actually have sumthing like a cg in clhs now,we meet in the band room eevry morn b4 10 all those who are intrested are welcome to come.=)

Yx oel and max came to slpover on sat,we finished watching 2 sermons and were about to doze off,then we went out and crapped,THEN we climed to my neighbours balcony to gaze at stars,THEN we decided to climb back go to my yard and gaze at stars there while munching on cookies,and we took LOADS of crazy pics and vids,all in all an awesome experienceXD.

pics will be posted in the next one.

Wet

2008-10-31T09:25:00.000-07:00

First off dont text me,call my house cause i never check my cellXD.

allrite got the dates messed up and ended up in GBC instead of the beach.MAN! u had nooo idea how bad i felt and yet max was calm and optimistic,he was a real Godsend to me.THX!=)

called yx and asked him to pick us up and so we reached the beach at round 8.50.And watttt a greeting I got.Wei jin mat and yx all gang on me and threw me into the sea,(You guys,i just LET u.XD)

Then we went to kapitan for supper,and the guys went nuts and started throwing bots of junk food into each others mouth,plus spitting ice cubes at each other.XD.SIAO EH,but fun!then we went to the toilet,NEARLY got stripped,whew thank goodness that it didnt happen.hahax

Jia yit sent yx mat and I back home,hes a dang nice guy la!for those of u who are 23 i'll intro u to himXD.

Thats it for now,adios!

FRISBEE

2008-10-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

on nov 7th(my bday)CLHS will be hosting a frisbee tournament,and...all the 412 form 3 ppl frm clhs have been chosen plus a few others to play for the school.

YEA!!!!!LETS GO!!!!

been playibng frisbee in school since wed,walao loads of ppl have a lot of potential AND our passing has improved so rapidly.Plus this sports are causing curiousty among ppl,they must be thinkin "wat are those weird white playing disks doing on our padang?"

Watch out a shockers coming ur way.CLHS team gonna win.WOOHOOOHOOOO!!!!

2008-10-27T18:52:00.000-07:00

Today ponteng-ed school haha,but its after PMR what do you expect me to do?

I feel like skipping school tml,maybe i will i'll see how it goes, haha.

Yesterday watched HSM 3,wow the girls have gotten Hot!!LOL.And the songs were dang yeng,u should go watch,and u could say this saved high school musical since HSM 2was terribly crappy.

What else to say,nothing much has happened spent a whole day in church again on sunday,haha its sooo nice doing that.Sports was fun as usual,but i was more tired that day and me plus ben chwee got head shots with the frisbee,owwwww.

SO glad God has kept me frm any injuries and pray that He will continue in doing that,the spiritual realm is more active than we know,so be careful in everything we do.

thats all for now,and so we go.

2008-10-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

If all had if everything and every i loved is taken away,would i still fall on my knees and worship God?that should be a question we must ponder....

Last night i was troubled again by this question,all i could do was pray i said Lord let your angles comfort me.

I fell asleep and i dreamt of four angles touching my shoulders and i felt so comforted,worship song were playing all around me and i wanted to take a look at the lyrics,one of the angles turned a com screen to me bearing the lyrics,i smiled at him and said"Thanks"

then..i woke up,gasping for breath...thank you Lord,u sent me ur angles just when i needed them.

I myself have had 3 other visions.But i'll leave it till next time.=)

Another full day at church and then went straight for sports til seven.i like mat's house and his dogsXD he has a freakin hoop!so shiok,but its short and i can touch the rim hahax.

allrite first of all i have no intrest in any of the girls in my youth group,and i will only start looking after spm .

secondly i only complimented hannah as a friend nothing more got it?

third wats the deal with sam and shantitni?

2008-10-25T03:08:00.000-07:00

One full day at church,got up at 8.15 amd went there for breakfast,and whadda u noe,TAN KUKU!!!XD.then gbc and a few fpbc ppl went up to hear the 5 hour sermon on worship.Not bad,very intruiging.

Then starightaway after that i had worship practice,the songs willy chose quite hard to sing,better take some strepsils after this.

And then we went ut for the long awaited lunch,then went back to church and chiong foosball.SHIOK!b4 i went back daniel said he can touch the rim...whoaaa....at his height it seems impossible.

Now i wanna wait for my food to digest b4 sprinting.Sean signing out.

2008-10-24T08:57:00.000-07:00

Aloha ,its been a while.Schools been a blast,every morn play bbal till recess and played grable till school finishes.=)Envy the form 3..ENVY US!!!

Loads of opening for evangalism and woots got to preach to a few of em..haha...God is good.Something amazing also happened today,to show me God is a forgiving and loving God.Wanna noe?call me=)

Tml gonna hav pr wah lock preach bout worship frm 9 til 2.The form3's have alllll the time in the world,so of course i'm going.Then gonna have worship practice at 2.30.Gonna have a great day tml.And i met pr Kok aun and his family plus friends at northam,so much fun talking with jeremy,Ben,his sis and pr wah lock's handsome,quiet son,haha.

Oh yea and i got caned by the school's discplinary ah pon(lai)cause me and bout 16 others didn play football but went off to bball and play chess.It felt kinda refreshing actually.GO TRY IT!!!

This is the LIFEEE!!!!AMEN!=))))))

2008-10-18T01:28:00.000-07:00

Something's coming

I can feel it in the wind...

In every beating heart around me...

it is...done.

KOWABUNGA!!!!!!FINISHED!HABIS!LIAO!WOOHOOO

pada 17 oktober bendera penjajahan PMR tealh diturunkan.Darurat duduk rumah study telah ditamatkan.OH YEA!!!!

bball gurney church activities bible reading masterlife tv com..yea...this is the life.

2008-10-09T21:05:00.000-07:00

this is an awesome poem by max.

Saving and Saving Again

Every time when I vulnerably fall,
To you Lord i desperately call,
In front of me then, You'd stand tall,
Assuring me with a smile, everyone adores.

So many times I have pushed you away,
Still you followed me day by day,
Shining me with your comforting ray,
Slowly guiding me back to the way.

In my heart you settle and stayed,
Pulling me back whenever i swayed
Even in my deepest dismay,
You would do miracles to make me gay.

So distracted is my fragile soul,
Still on to me you firmly hold,
Just so that i would always know,
you are the only one that can fill my heart's hole.

Amen....

Victory

2008-10-07T00:48:00.000-07:00

Sweat feel like drops of blood to the ground

No....Not my soul..anything...please! cried the man

Oh...but thats exactly what i want...sneered the demon.

His pupils widened as the hooded figure shrouded in darkness glidded soundlessly over the floor.Everything seemed lost.He felt all hope and his very life being sapped away by the evry presence of this being.

Take a look around....its the last thing u'll see...the raspy voice said,sending a chill that resonated throughout his whole body.

All hope was lost.And then...a bang,a flash of white light.

"AHHHH!!!!"screamed the evil spirit in terror and pain.

The man had to shield his eyes,whoever it was that saved him,the light that He emittied was too glaring for the naked eye.

A hand extended and as the man grasped it,warmth flooded back into his body...life,hope,joy all things that were good seemed to be surrounding his Saviour.

And as he was helped up,his eyes were accustomed to the light,but still he could not see the persons face.

All is not lost..said the voice,a deep and comforting voice it was,...I will strengthen and ...I Wills Sve.

No,I cant...I'm not strong enough....

Trust,have faith dear one.Stand firm in me....For I will forever remain faithful.Remember....and He breathed on the mans face.Courage and boldness overwhelmed the man.

And then in another flash of light..the man was alone again.But he felt something in both his hands.A sword and a shield,engraved with a cross.

In an instant the tables were turned.

The tormenter looked in horror as his pray was inevitably about tog ain...victory.

2008-10-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

I'll post the other stories i thought of in the next 1.Taking a break frm itXD.

Yesterday had xiang xiang(ge ong) and maxie(lansi kiaXDjkjk) for a slp over.we went to play bball first then we actually had a religous chat beside the bball court..u noe opening with a word of prayer and everything.I told them about these 2 DVDs that would explain heaven and hell,and the 2nd one would help in evangalism.So as my dad was driving us home i asked him if they could come over and watch,he said yes,then i asked could they stay over?again the thumbs up.

Watching sermons with friends at nite is a blast,then we went out for supper...and then read our bibles and had fellowship.And then we werent tired so we went down and watched jumper.LOL.storyline stupid graphics yeng.Then hehehe we went up and bullied xiang by tickling ,poking and reading his sms and teasing him about som1 playing to his heartbeat, till all of us got tired and slept at 4.

And we woke up went to GBC all tired out...but i suprisingly was quite awake,adrenaline?XD.
I bet i'm gonna slp at 10 hahax

conclusion...another slpover must be done.XD.

for more info visit xiang xiang's blog at http://undesirelove.blogspot.com/.see i help u promoteXD

The pit

2008-10-03T22:41:00.001-07:00

This is a series of christian-themed articles that i thought of=)

He stumbled.Blinded,unable to see what was ahead.What he thought was safe ground,was actually a path leading down into the darkest depths of the earth.The depths...filled with the vle,the despicable spirits who roam the earth,trapping ppl and destroying their very souls.

He continued on,walking thru the valley.On all the sides the demons grimmaced.Evil hunger gleamed in every eye that was watching him.

He walked until he came to a pit.And then hands,hands of the dead, hands of those who were not at peace reached reached out frm the murky depths of the muck.Each hand ready to grab the ignorant victim.

Just as he was about to step into the pool,with a falsh of light..he could see.See what was around him.See what wat was he stepping into.He fell back.

"He still ours for the taking"declared one of the mutated monsters.

Just as they were about to consume him,A shield enclosed him like a clear dome.This shield was transparent,yet with the colours of a rainbow.He was mesmerised.

"Step down...for this soul belongs to me"And the demons scattered shivering with terror.The man heard that voice and suddenly felt safe....and comfort.

His saviour turned towards him."By grace i have saved u"

Yes Lord....how can i ever thank you?

Go stop those who are blind,who cannot see nor hear.That will be your spiritual act of worship.

Yes Lord i will.

And he stood at the evry path that leads to the murky depths and stopped those who were walking down it...And The Lord smiled pleased at the mans work.

The Warrior

2008-10-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

The great serpant smiled."you have failed miserably.....i have won...again.Look at you ...weak,Fool did u actually think u can fight me?"

Sweat,tears and blood all fell to the ground from the face of the warrior,he fought and fought.Dodging the serpants arrows,his strikes.At times he wounded the beast,but he also...failed.He sat on the floor,breathless.Was there any1 who could save him?he wanted to stand..his kness gave way.His sword,his shield his armor....on the verge of breaking.He panted...And his soul cried out.Was there any1 to save him now?

STAND UP.

he heard it,a voice...who was it?This voice..it gave him a sense of hope,he felt light,and he felt...at peace.A feeling that he hadnt felt in a long long while.In a flash he was taken,and standing in front of him....was God.

I....I have failed u Father...I tried....I cant....

Good Son,you have fought bravely.Even tough u fail...even though you grieve me.I still Love you.Now stand up,fight again for me.and if u fall I your Lord will catch you.

Thank you...Father...thank you.

In a twinkling of an eye,his armor his shield his sword...renewed.Glowing with the light only God could give.

Then the serpant was in front of him again.

AHAHAHAHA!So...u still can stand.I will devour you....U cannot win.

Yes...i have failed...but i will continue to fight...i will stand up for my Father...and in the end..I WILL WIN!!!!

and for the first time.....

he saw fear in the serpants eyes.

2008-10-02T10:34:00.000-07:00

Went up hiking with my dad and his pastor frm another church.This guy goes hiking 3 times a week up penang hill,of course it wasn a prob for me but my dad...well he didnt excercise for a long timeXD.So we decided to go up half way and stop there.I made it i about 25-30 min and had to wait there for bout 20 min b4 they came(my dads pastor was pacing with him,he didnt go full throtle).On the way down,i looked like moses cause i was carrying this big ol walking stick(was afraid of monkeys...freaky animals.)

So i came back had dinner and half way through reading jeremiah fell asleep,frm 9-11.30 then i woke up,which kinda explains this post.XD.I also ate 2 packets of sea weed,banana, cake and kuih,mmmm yummy.

Pray that i will have another awesome dream so i can posy bout it.

PMR-ERS!!!JIA YOU!!!!GOGOGO!!!!=)

2008-10-01T04:33:00.000-07:00

I wonder wats its like to kiss som1...well it be smelly?wet?sloopy?will it be like trying to eat som1's face?mut ur mouth be opened wide or small?wats the technique?

did u noe kissing:
boots self confidence
slows the aging process
heps u exchange millions of bacteria at a time.

I am a lil worried bout my bm and bc i was never able to grasp those subjects as well as others,but what can i do?All i can do is read a few karangan books,komsas and just..well...pray.He is i charge of it all,i lift up to my Father.(i dont mind if i get b for bm and bcXD)

There will be bigger challenges in life,we have to Trust him at all times.

rats why did i have to wake up as i was kissing that sweet gal?RATSXD

Another dream

2008-09-30T01:00:00.000-07:00

I was in a tower...a HUGE tower which had a few floors and a staircase which winds up and up and up.There beside me were broomsticks,So i took one and flew up to the highest level.And there i saw picture of a person getting water.Then i heard som1 saying"Hey why are u getting water now?"A dragon roared and screams plus the crunching of bones were heard.I saw the shadow of the dragon and flew down to the second floor,This one contained the picture of a guy getting food..And the same voice said"hey why are u getting food now?"and history repeated itself.I looked..every single floor had a picture of a person doing sumthin and everytime that voice shouted a dragon would come out and devour somone.Wat was this...Some sick feeding schedule?Fear suddenly gripped me and i flew down.As i landed i realised I had the power to transform into a Human sized bee!I metamorphasised and flew around for a bit.

Then there were a few groups of ppl around me and a person split us into teams,my team all ha dthe same power as me.Turned out each team had to kill a dragon or be killed....geez.The first team up were wizards ,they flew around on broomsticks and with a few spells....dragon dead.Next was my team and a 2nd dragon appeared,As we flew to face him,i suddenly couldnt fly CRAP!!!i was falling AHHHHHHH!!!and without knowing it my stinger jabbed the monster in the neck.HE WAS DEAD!My team and i were allowed to leave the castle.

As we regained our human form all my teammates left except one....and damn she was cute.no...she was DAMN FREAKIN CUTE.we talked and without knowing it we held hands...awww man...it felt so sweet...as we were about to kiss.......

i woke up.

rats.

The time u need to run..is the time u need to die...

2008-09-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

Tensions rise...

senses sharpen....

Hunger the driving force...

Every single movement dilebrately orchastrated....

Survival at stake...

The primal beast unleahed...

Hang on...

Cause the time u need to run is the time u need to die....

Yeng?(its a nat geo comercial,worlds deadliest animalsXD)

Sports today was a lil sien,no danile not as shiok,but it was fun seeing yong xiang key form...scored 3 out of 4(GE ONG!XD)then captian ball..clhs team...complete ownage..we pawned the other team till they couldn do anythinXD

The first time i wore jeans to GBC...every 1was so suprised LOL. dont think it makes a difference,long pants or bermudasXD.But it does keep me warm and comfy.Me like it.

Yea one week of raya hols...bball any1?

Another episode in the dreams of sean

2008-09-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

Mat was teasing me about not being as tall as he was...and ben was there too both tall ppl perli-ing me and jamie said "how bout me?"

Then i was suddenly in school and my friend who didnt study suddenly got a 86 for chinese. me and a gang of friends were so pissed,so we decided to break in to the teachers office.It wasnt easy because the teachers were expceting us and instead of a normal office...we had to float on magical flying baskets through a course to reach to the teachers desk.We ste our plans into motion and ....flew.We took shorcuts and there teachers armed with all sortsof weapons were waiting for us.We nose-dived towards our teachers desks and snatched all our test-papres(to change our marks)And then the basket stopped floating.WE touched down in the middle of a mob of mad teachers armed to the teeth.I was about to summoun a machine gun when the white witch came and took us by the hand,She thenm blew some powder on the floor and we jumped on top of it.We disappeard.

Then i was at home with my gf(i didnt even noe who it was)all i knew as a sweet feeling and it was nice....but then she told me she waseaving for KL.

Then...i woke up in bed.XD(btw the teachers office was like a catacomb)

CG

2008-09-26T08:25:00.000-07:00

Yea...CG was a blast,table tennis(i'm a nooby at it)then loads of pizzas..YEA!After that we played grabble,a more fun simple and exicting version of scrabble,ming tze and daniel owned every1...lol.Then we played table tennis again,I became king!for like 2 rounds....lol.I think they were having mercy on a noob kaXD.

I can do everything in Him who gives me strength...i will stand firm no matter what.

I'm starting to like table tennis...lol,jumping and whacking the ball is sooooooo shiok.

Yeaaaa..raya hols... but have to study..haizz..still no preassure eh PMR-ers?right?hehe...

Awww man miniguns are damn coo,i wish i could mow something down with it.....

i wanna play bball....i wanna play bball...GBC IS GONNA GET A RIM NEXT YEAR!!!WOOHOOHOO!!!

and so we go

Tempations

2008-09-25T05:26:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh!!tempations attacking me from all directions...Father give me strength i plead to You...give me strength ,I dont wanna dirty myself with sin....I have failed you so many times....forgive me Lord i pray.....I need your protection...shield me O Father....i noe u will.....

2008-09-24T06:32:00.000-07:00

This evening i was almost hit by a car while jogging...and suddenly when i was praying tonite i realised that God was watching over me since i was born.I fell head first out of my baby cart when i was 1,and i was fine!(maybe thats i am crazy at timesXD)and when i got cut when i was standard 4 even thought i needed a lot of stitches no major injuries!Today...nearly hit by a car....How blessed I am...

Why?Why do I get so much blessings?A wretched human...a sinner...a flithy human..getting loved and cared for by the Creator of all...By grace alone it has happened and by the Spirit Of God i shall have faith...My Father in heave has made himself so real to me!!I owe him everything...so i pray that my life, my heart, my soul and all i am...God use it for ur glory,I dont care about the worldly things anymore,For i am in debt to You..a debt that can never be paid,so i give my life as an offering to you God,I sin all the time,and You forgive me..i thank You Father...i thank You....Use me..All i am i lay it down at Your feet....i Fail u ,but i will give You my all.

I pray...I will never forget what you have done for me OGod,take me show me Your Will...and I will follow.

2008-09-21T06:37:00.000-07:00

And with a bday song they smashed the bday cake into edwards face making him look like"2 face"Lol he chased mat around the field,jus like i did when he.....nvm.Anyway after that he smelled of milk mixed with sweat ...eww....but it was an amazing spectacle.XD

So here was the plan to do an alley oop with max and joel,i would shake my head a few times and do my "lansi" face then throw the ball up,one of em will come rushing in and catch and shoot,well...guess wat?a VERY smart guy called mat broke the boxes...so in the end the catchers couldn stand on boxes,which caused every1 to crowd around which caused us not to be able to do it....nvm..frisbee was good.Somehow i always ended up on the floor catching frisbee or ball.Lol.

oh man falling in love with hillsong's to the ends of the earth....beautiful song...

jus before dinner had a BEAUTIFUL slp then went out for japanese...very smart ppl the japs,they divide thier food upinto small portions so if u clear every portion u'll be full...maybe tats why their so thin...

all rite hope i can mow down more stuff in my dreams with machineguns and tanks...cya.

Dreams

2008-09-19T07:48:00.000-07:00

Before i feel asleep i thought..i liked dreams...then i dozed off

there was this huge mutant dog in front of me,jet-black eyes,saliva drolling..u get the picture.i thought to myself "i like dreams "inside the dream.

I summouned a double barrel shoot gun and shoot him,blew too holes in his head,then a falme thrower,TORCHED IT!AHAHAHAHAHAH!then summouned a huge machine gun.WOOHHOOO!!!had a heck of a time mowing it.then i woke up...awww...sad la..why didnt i have more time for more weapons....

I love "our love is loud"...such a nice song...

WE LOVE YOU LORD! WE LOVE YOU! WE LOVE YOU!!!!=)))))
Today's cg was nice although there was only 3 ppl,haha fellowshipped with the college ppl,perli-ed mat bout not joining frisbee ....soooo shiokXD

rock away...rock away....rock away...rock away......

The insight into blushing

2008-09-18T00:28:00.000-07:00

Note blushing is different for every individual(i think) so here's my view:

Blushing is a unique thing,it is mostly done by girls but apparently there will be rare casses when the blushing gene is in a boy,me.If there are any other boy blushers out there...i feel u manXD.

There are a few reasons for blushing(for me)i might sometimes blush when complimented or stared at by a lot of ppl, or feel embarassed ,or when i'm in contact with som1 i like,and last but not least it might just be hot.=)

First the heat comes from ur body,u can slowly feel it making its way up to ur face,u helplessly try to stop it,but the harder u try the faster it spreads,then when the ehat reaches ur face it feels HOT.and u can literally FEEL it truning red.And then the responses come"Look he's blushing!""Tomato face!""AHAHAHAHAH""BLUSH MORE!"

i think its nice to be able to blush(when i am being perli-ed by daniel and the restXD)Every1 gets a kick out of seeing me blush and i am able to bring joy and laughterXD.Maybe i should sart charging ppl to see me blush...hmm....and it also means my blood flow is very good.

sooooo for all u ppl out there....BLUSHING IS AWESOME!RITE BLUSH BUDDY?=)

2008-09-16T19:44:00.000-07:00

I see friends get hurt....bad...cause they let themselves in too deep with the ones whom they liked.Its saddening...the way the hurt lingers,i feel sorry for them.They will recover yes,but a part of them has been torn.I hope they can let go.

So i guess for now my capability to detach and stopping myself frm going in too deep is a good thing.i dont wanna be hurt,its gonna be painful if it does.Perhaps this mechanism will only stop when i find Ms right.Until then,i shall keep myself away frm these futile emotions,only clouding and blurring my heart.A burden u might call it.I dont like that feeling,i wanna be free.

Lol i'm not emo,i'm jus saying the truth.The higher u climb the worse the fall.So before i even climb i shall stop,cut away these feelings,making sure that it doesn get to me.A fullproff way of being safe.

And so we go.

2008-09-16T01:03:00.000-07:00

Detach...attach..i fall in and out of crushes so easily and when i do get one i make sure i still keep my distance to prevent heartache when it ends.Will i ever find som1 i truly Love?Hard to say....i dont dare to get too attached.True Love is till to God.=)

So max was saying he was gonna play football with shen hong.My advice?

CRUSH THE ENEMY
DEFY THE OPPOSTION
RAMPAGE TO VICTORY
KNOCK DOWN THE OPPONENTS
BLOOD WILL BE SHED
BODIES WILL FLY
IN THE WAKE OF...
MAXIMUS GALAPTICUS!!!(his scientific name as created by meXD)

I woke up at 7 did a b, paper and got at least 18-20 wrong.So i got pekcheck and slept till 10.This time i did math and sc...muchh better.

and now i wish a very good day to allof u.

2008-09-15T04:37:00.000-07:00

I've come down with a slight fever,i think i played sports too vigorously on sun.At least i can use com,my family is out nowXD.Yea max and yongxiang i'm gonna get u back for bullying me like tat.Jamie we'r still even...and i will turn out to be the victorXD.Again...THERE IS NO WAY THAT WAS U.

A lot of ppl think"fuck" is vulgar but lookie here

Funny
Understanding
Caring
Kind
F-U-C-K

Sooooooo do u see the light?XD(note:i am not a vulgar guy,jus remebered tat my friend told me this)

Yongxiang said a lot of stupid stuff when were whizzing in the toilet....but i'll let him tell u guys.

2008-09-12T22:50:00.000-07:00

Jamie i am still a boy even thought i blushXD.isit wrong for a boy to blush?tat jus means i hav good blood circulationXD.I even dreamt of you LOL,u were wearing a dress made out of drinking straws and we were holding hands.like WAT?XD

my legs are dang sore now but still...mornig bball is DAMN SHIOK!!!loving it more an more,especially when u play with friend,i tapped ppls shooting and layups a lot today.KEY FORMXD.but every1 was good,haizzz beinging rebounder is tiring...gotta keep on jumping an jumping but DAMN SHIOK!XD.And i was quite good at being rebounder(PERASAN!XD)

then ater eating i one on one daryl and yong xiang.Me vs yong xiang5-1 me vs daryl 5-2.(5's are me lol perasan again!XD)anyways it was awesome playing with u guys.

Yea...and happy mooncake festival!tonite going to friends house...maybe can play nite bballXD.

love love love........

2008-09-12T07:51:00.000-07:00

The irreversible jus became reversable....damn nice.thru who?Thru our God...who else can reverse death itself?

I missed the bus!ahhhhhhh!didnt noe form 5 had exams and had to wait till 3...now my whole face is red due to sunburn....every1 thins i'm blushing or sumthin....JAMIE I HAVN LOST!XDMat u look like guai gia with specs(heck every1 doesXD)Gotta love travis man...damn yeng and talkative at the same time.Lawarence....u can become an insurances salesmanXD

YES BBALL TML MORN!!!!AHAHAHAAHAA!!!!!I LOVE IT!

man.....why am i feeling like this...it sumtimes keeps me awake at nite.....am i....should i.....lol.

and now......lets surrender to Christ.

2008-09-11T05:58:00.000-07:00

Walao exams finally ending...whew cant wait for mooncake festival going over to my friends house.Maybe we can play some night bball....

Maths was super hard...the teach cant even solve some of the questions herself and she goes and puts tat crap on oue exams sheets....WTH?she jus wants us to fail i think.lol.

btw i heard this quote....Life is like a vaccum cleaner....it sucks.LOL!But i like my life so it doesnt apply to me.XD.

I like this verse.Romans 8.32??i forgot.XD.paisheh
For i am convinced that neither death nor life,neither angle nor demon,neither past nor future,nor any powers,neither depth nor height,nor anything in all creation,can keep us from the love of our God that is in Jesus Christ.BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!

Why do i feel this way...no ,this was never meant to be....

I cant wait to fall in love with u,u cant wait to fall in love...with me...i like tat song.

So now....lets live to the fullest.

2008-09-06T10:34:00.000-07:00

Whew...todays worship practice was tiring.But still it was quite fun,dead tired lol.Raining raining raining...but now its stooped!Praise the Lord!!!!=)Ttat hopefully means tat sports is on tml.

My dads hospitals annual dinner,the food was good but other than hat it was B-O-R-I-N-G.My dad and mum wore kimonos and my sis wore cheongsam cause the theme tat nite was "Truly Asia" I wore a shirt with the words"Beverly hills"YEA!

the smile on ur face lets me know tat u need me...there's a cure in ur eyes saying u'll never leave me...

gotta love tat song man.

2008-09-05T09:37:00.000-07:00

Wat is this......I have not felt this way never had and never will.NO string attached,yea.......tats the way....XD.

Anyways after the 2 language subjects i feel mush more relaxed WHEW!Tonite's CG was a blast.WE'R GONNA MISS U JACKIE!!!!XD.Every1 was fellowshiping and it was soooo nice until som1 had to bring up the"historical moment"at youth park.AHHHHH I'LL NEVER HEAR THE END OF IT!!!!!XD

I wanna play bball i wanna play bball i wanna play bball...havn had a good match in AGES.

YAY!worship practice tml morn,cant wait to try out the paradise songs...YEA!XD.

the ice is starting to freeze over....will it melt?dang i sure hope so lol!We talked then we ignored then we started talking again,Geez i hope we can have a decent friendship.XD

And so we go.I ....am...free....

2008-08-31T21:49:00.000-07:00

Yes ladies and gentelmen, sc fever has offically died.As we bury it.sahll we have a moment of silence?...............thank you.And now we say a few words.

Sc u have given us such a great oppurtunity to make friends and join cultures,we thank you for the great times we had and all the fun stuff we did togheter,but now as reality,school and each of our own intrests set us back on our own course we leave u to be stored only as another memory.But i'm sure we will all agree tat we all loved it,and pray tat our friedships will last.

Walao trials this thurs but i dont feel any preassure at all.YIPEEEEEXD.Missing the fellowship at st.goerges and Sports already....man its been oni a day LOL!Well it gives me sumthin to look forward to every week.

i wanna play bball i wanna play bball i wanna play bballXD

Btw when i thought Wall.E was the most retarded movie ever,i was wrongXD.Its amazing how can 2 robots can make such a good story.

I like this quote.The robot said "on the axiom we will survive"

The captain said "I dont want to survive I WANT TO LIVE!"

shouldnt we do the same?