If

If i could accumulate the amount of anger i felt,i think it would be enough to really allow me to change into a were wolf,to give me the ability to create a tornado,to be able to pump me up enough to rip the very earth apart

then Thank God i do not have the ability to allow my anger to manifest itself in such ways,or alot of ppl are going to die,

but sometimes i wish i could.

God

God thank You for showing me so much.

but i still struggle i still need help

i believe help me in my unbelief

i am willing help me in my unwillingness

i love yOu OGod

i do,so help me

please i wanna live for u,so God mould me and shape me to become like Jesus.amen.

why

God wat is...

gah this is so confusing.how do i express myself

wat is the difference

why cant things be simplified

why cant...

its so...

darn..

why..

do i..

where is..

argh

God help me.

A living paradox

in every human the capacity for evil,and yet possessing the same capability to carry out good deeds.

in every human,the ability to rage,ravage and destroy.Yet there are many who are called peacemakers,loving,children of God.

in every human,therein lies a monstrosity,the power to wreak havoc and unleash hell on earth.Yet in every human,there is an angel,a saint,spreading and smothering those they meet with brotherly love.

Every human,a living paradox,the embodiment of polar opposites,a walking oxymoron.

If only it were possible to rid myself of the carnal nature that rises up within me so often.If only the component of sin was eradicated from this earthly body of mine!How i wish to be sinless,pure and blameless before God.

At times my soul feels as if it were about to be torn in two.On one hand,the sin that i so hate,tempts me to leap into her open arms,a swirling black vortex of doom only awaiting to destroy me.And sometimes i heed the voice of the animalistic nature i have yet to destroy!But on the other,i hear the voice of God,the calling to be pure and empty myself of my spirit and be filled with His.And to my joy and most certainly to His,i am learning to tap into that nature more and more.

But so many times i loose that connection.so many times i fail.

Oh who can save me from the filth that so encompasses me?Who could possibly save this sinner,the worst of sinners?

But Thanks be to God!That He has already sent Christ to Die for me,and more importantly that Christ is ressurected,that he is already seated at the right hand of God.

I have so much to learn,still so young in faith,still so weak,still so powerless,still finding my way,still having so much room to grow.

But thanks be to God.

Thanks be to God.

Pondering

pondering upon what are we really doing in our lives.

in ours schools in our lifes,do we really contribute everything to God.

how many times have we let our old selves with its lusts,desires,anger and all the fallen qualities of man take contorl of us?

we need to stay CONNECTED to God.it something so important that really hit me now.

it snot just for that one hour of reading the bible and worshiping..no.its praying and talking and meditating on God throught the whole day.to continually stay tuned to him even in doing our mundane routines

schoolwork,chores,our homes,our churches his is where God has placed for a reason.

lets live out His glory.

Heart of worship

we always sing that we Love God,we close our eyes,feel His presence go home rejoicing,and then

we forget everything.

Do we really know what He did on the corss for us?have we really meditated on his stautues day and night?have we REALLY been trying to follow Him and love Him?Do we obey God only partially?

do we roclaim God with our lives?

have we really surrendered everything?

do we really noe how hard it is to praise God when all thigns are stripped away?do we really noe what faith hope and love really is?

the heart of worship is COMPLETE OBEDIENCE.

how often have we missed that mark?have we really laid down our lives for Him?

worship is more than songs,music and saying pious prayers.worship is living outHis word.

ot sso easy to [raise God when we'r healthy,surrounded by friends and family,with everythign we want and need

in fact in times like these,we usually forget Who's giving us all the blessgins in life,who's really worthy of our praise,and instead focusing on the world,on our friends,on relationships,on everythign besides god.

God please.let me proclaim with every inch of my soul

Jesus
You
Are
Lord
forever.

You

you look too good for your own good.

seeing u smile is an experience i'll never ever forget.

my heart still skips a beat everytime i see u.