A living paradox

in every human the capacity for evil,and yet possessing the same capability to carry out good deeds.

in every human,the ability to rage,ravage and destroy.Yet there are many who are called peacemakers,loving,children of God.

in every human,therein lies a monstrosity,the power to wreak havoc and unleash hell on earth.Yet in every human,there is an angel,a saint,spreading and smothering those they meet with brotherly love.

Every human,a living paradox,the embodiment of polar opposites,a walking oxymoron.

If only it were possible to rid myself of the carnal nature that rises up within me so often.If only the component of sin was eradicated from this earthly body of mine!How i wish to be sinless,pure and blameless before God.

At times my soul feels as if it were about to be torn in two.On one hand,the sin that i so hate,tempts me to leap into her open arms,a swirling black vortex of doom only awaiting to destroy me.And sometimes i heed the voice of the animalistic nature i have yet to destroy!But on the other,i hear the voice of God,the calling to be pure and empty myself of my spirit and be filled with His.And to my joy and most certainly to His,i am learning to tap into that nature more and more.

But so many times i loose that connection.so many times i fail.

Oh who can save me from the filth that so encompasses me?Who could possibly save this sinner,the worst of sinners?

But Thanks be to God!That He has already sent Christ to Die for me,and more importantly that Christ is ressurected,that he is already seated at the right hand of God.

I have so much to learn,still so young in faith,still so weak,still so powerless,still finding my way,still having so much room to grow.

But thanks be to God.

Thanks be to God.